Convictions

I am a man whose convictions are being tested.
The world never seems to skip a beat
When it comes to beating me down
A notch
Or two
The thoughts of the things around
Fill my mind with hatred and dread
I think that the world sometimes
Must be coming to an end.

When I walk by someone in need
My heart hurts
When I don’t say something when someone needs an encouraging word
My heart hurts
When I don’t hold the door for someone who needs it
My heart hurts
When I don’t pray and forget that God is watching
My heart breaks in two

I am a man, a leader who is expected to do something
Something small and insignificant for the cause
Or something great to reshape a tiny life.
We are the winds of change and I must be one
The world watches me a man of convictions
A man without a plan
And I always say, “Yes!”
When all I mean is sure as long as I can stay in my box.